Thursday, May 30. 2013
I am not planning on doing "one year ago today" posts every week for the next year. This will be the last one except for when I pass my radiation and chemo anniversaries and you have several months to wait for those. Up above, you will see my cheering section while I was having surgery for my tumor. It was so nice of these people to come and sit with Jim and Lynette through which must have been a truly harrowing time. Imagine, to lose sight of me at 11:30 am and not see me again until after midnight. (There were periodic updates.) The surgery took about three hours longer than expected. I was surgery about 9 and a half hours.
I don't remember much about that time. I remember being wheeled away from my family and friends.
Being medicated and recovering leaves one too out of it to think. There is much I don't remember of those first few days in ICU and PCU. I remember how uncomfortable the breathing tube was. Those notes were to ask to get rid of it! I remember waking up in the middle of the night and feeling awake and alone and floating in a sea of darkness with a few points of light. Pain killers can do weird things to my mind. It is rather awe-inspiring to think of having such a massive surgery done.
This post isn't flowing from my brain through my fingers as some do. I guess it is still too painful of a memory to revisit. It's the day that changed my life, shook me out of complacency, taught me to enjoy life more, made me more fearful and also more trusting.
May the thing I take out of this experience is more love.
May 30, 2023 -- Looking back 10 years later and remembering these people that stood by for hours and half the night to be with Jim and Lynette still, well, I don't have the words, but it does something to my heart. And...there is one in the picture that went through much of what I did, and didn't win.
It hurts my heart to remember that.
2 comments:
Bonita Sue said...
I won't forget that day either. Even though I was far away at the time, I have vivid memories of many details of the day. Glad that day and year is behind you.
May 31, 2013 at 7:28 AM
Dodie said...
I, too, remember where I was that day, and the constant undercurrent of worry and concern...the huge relief to hear you were out of surgery...the joy felt when we heard you were writing notes the next morning. We hope that we gained a measure of what you did, from the sidelines...more trust, less complacency, more love.
May 31. 2013j at 8:41 PM
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